
Growing up, I noticed early on that our tree was different. It wasn't quite as crowded, it wasn't always organized, and it wasn't really themed.


I looked around and imagined Christmas extraordinaires gathering together to tediously put together a perfect tree, stringing, swirling, and systematizing the extravaganza that would display proudly, perfectly centered, lit up every evening for weeks before the blessed night of gift giving.

Our tree decorating was different, sporadic and, at times, chaotic.





After his full day of wrestling with ladders, playing electrician with burnt out bulbs and tangling strings of lights, my dad would haul up the blanket covered monster from the basement, swamped in some old quilt that had met its fate too early to some stain or tear. Then, up each step he would tromp, his lined forehead furrowed in effort and frustration with the unbending branches.

Then, my mom would frantically scramble to unearth the Amy Grant album that had somehow found its way to the bottom of the pile, somehow managing to escape the wear and tear of years surpassed by CDs and MP3s and miraculously remained unharmed in its unmatchable harmony. The three sisters would then be sent back downstairs to dig through the musty cardboard filled basement abyss, complete with spiders and webs and other creepy crawlies to find the few boxes of ornaments that had survived the careful sorting of my always practical mother. And then the evening could begin.


In my childhood home, each ornament was to be evaluated, discussed and carefully considered before it found its designation on the tree. A story had to be present, a memory fresh with tears. Perhaps it was mom and dad’s first Christmas picture together encased in a rounded sugar frame, now repulsive as I recall sneaking licks of it just a few years ago to taste the sweetness. Even older still was their ski trip ornament, the ski poles skinny and unbroken through the years. My Baby’s first Christmas ornament, given by Grandma Berigan, the mother of all things beautiful and small and impractical is round and pink, but Annie’s ornament plays a song when twisted. Andrea’s first Christmas ornament is a tiny teddy bear, wearing only a red embroidered bib. More recent now, as of 2006, is my wedding ornament, a beautiful bride head to toe in innocent white, carrying a bouquet of flowers with a pink ribbon streaming from her grasp. This now hangs on my own family's tree. But before an ornament was even hung, it had to make the cut of careful evaluation from each family member, complete with pros and cons and even the occaisional vigorous protest from my mother. And so, each ornament was a story. And if it wasn’t, didn’t incite and excite discussion a plenty, into the ornament graveyard it went, the trash can, perhaps a little cruel, yes, although true.


Yes, our evening was a little different, unusual, as many times, the tree decorating would often turn more into ornament disposal than adorning. You see, even with the magic of Amy Grant singing through the air, the stories that were told each year, every year, for the hundredth time, and the pause of reminiscing silence, and the giggling of secrets not told until that evening, this was the music that truly danced in the air.
And now, with my own little family, our own little tree, our own little collection of just a few ornaments, I realize now that we are truly the Christmas extraordinaires. And that our tree is adorned with memories. And so, although our current budget doesn't include a fresh cut tree however that romantic adventure to a real, live Christmas tree farm really appeals to me, each year we have been married, Chris and I have made it our mission to find the perfect ornament. It must mean the past year of us. It must mean something different from the year before or make us laugh or make us remember or make us somehow remember what a blessed year it has been.

Yes, there are a few silly red and silver globes that adorn our branches and decorate in between these few five memory ornaments but they are just place holders perhaps for the memories still to come.



And, oh, the memories that are being made. It's not really Ellie's first Christmas, but it has definitely been the first year she's been interested in Christmas.

Yes, she is a little girl after my own heart. And I'm lovin' this and loving our season together.